It’s been less than four months since Mike died. I’ve made a few changes. I canceled the satellite service, and his phone. I’ve donated some of his clothing. I’ve taken over his desk. 

I can’t yet delete his email address. 

I don’t know what I’m waiting for … he never sent an email in his life, although he knew how to check it and read them.

How much longer will I continue to unsubscribe from all the political and medical subscriptions he’s still getting?

In the optional box marked “reason for unsubscribing,” I type DECEASED. I seem to want this pain.